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第五章

Han SanghoonHan Sanghoon·Seoul·EN

For a remarkably protracted duration, I had harbored deep anxieties regarding Parallax. It was far from the product itself that constituted the primary core of my contemplation. Rather, it was the incidental encumbrances—such as administrative processing and corporate entity dilemmas—that posed the ultimate friction. Embroiled in those anxieties for several weeks, I felt a sensation akin to returning to an endless, cyclical refrain. Part of me desired to entirely vacate my mind. There coexisted a vague expectation that perhaps, if a modicum of breathing room manifested, absolutely everything would resolve itself. I labored intensely to systematically organize my reflections. I ventured out for strolls, trudged to distant horizons, and immersed myself in literature, observing what species of existence predecessor entrepreneurs had endured.

Yet, what yielded the most paramount salvation was neither therapeutic healing nor meditation, but rather the raw, naked agony experienced within existence. If it hurt, it hurt. If it was grueling, it was grueling. If the urge to flee surfaced, the urge to flee surfaced. Listening explicitly to the primal outcry of the soul, it seemed my spirit systematically moved in perfect alignment with it.

To confront the dilemmas frontally rather than evading them, I proactively initiated contact with relevant parties. Ultimately, it all boiled down to matters of capital and procedural mechanics. A select few of these affairs concluded in an intensely agonizing manner. Fury erupted within me. Beholding those clinging, transactional human beings felt akin to peering directly into their blackened, nauseating interiors, causing a wave of intense revulsion to surge upward. I remain oblivious to precisely how many suns and moons were expended in that exact state—merely gasping for breath, spending yet another mindless day.

Intriguingly, the definitive answer resided in an entirely unprecedented domain. A supreme resolution that systematically eradicated the multitude of dilemmas while concurrently serving as the most magnificent verdict. The uncomfortable metrics of the diverse challenges I confronted. Upon unearthing what appeared to be a flawlessly prepared answer to absolutely all of those figures, everything from that specific juncture onward transformed into something exceptionally facile. Because the contemplation had been profound and protracted, the ultimate execution transpired in a singular flash. Because the agony had been deep, the act of deciding was perfectly crystalline.

Once more, I turn the page to an entirely alternate chapter of existence. My fifth enterprise. I forge Parallax. What species of realm will America manifest as? Will that domain transform into a stage capable of materializing the absolute substances I have envisioned? Or will I be compelled to trudge backward once more, akin to a defeated soldier? The final denouement remains veiled in obscurity. I have merely advanced, with absolute finality, into the Fifth Chapter.

▩ END · posted · 2025-09-08 · seoul
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